It has been a bit since I have posted because I have spent many hours studying and taking my online classes. I tried to upload some videos numerous times and it is just super slow. I have experienced problems with the internet. i won't complain. Living in another country has its own ups and downs. Since Valentines Day has passed, I wanted to share with you all a little something..
I came upon some words that had its way with me. I thought it could be of use to you all. I feel that self love and discovery is vital to anything we do in life. It has took me many years to uncover, love and trust who I really am. I am still learning.
how does one begin to love themselves..
Your heart doesnt always follow your head, which is a big part of the problem. I started by looking at my behavior as communication instead of getting mad at myself. What am i trying to say? Why would i do that? What is it i need or am not gettin? When i began to answer those things honestly, i started making some progress. You make choices then to try and give yourself what you are asking for. It can take time and be challenging, especially if you have some back tracking to do.
Secondly, i started asking myself ' what do i like? What makes me happy?' It began with only one thing. So i did that thing. I started surrounding myself with superficial things that made me smile, which led to building better connections with people who made me smile, which led to time alone that was replenishing instead of hopeless. It is ok to have a short list about what you like about you, but it is not an excuse to not be working on adding things. ♡
As with all things, we fear and dislike and skirt around things we dont understand; you need to get to know yourself more intimately because the more you understand yourself, the easier it becomes to love and accept who you are in all your progress. Keep pushing. Keep adding to that list no matter how trivial it seems. You are worth being loved. -AB